Chemo or No Chemo...

Tomorrow is finally the day where I will find out the next steps I will travel on this journey.  Chemo or no chemo...that is the question. I've been (somewhat patiently) waiting for the last two weeks on the results of the Mammaprint test, which will determine what happens next.  It's been tough to wait, but I've done pretty good at putting it aside and not letting it consume my worries and thoughts.  But now that it's tomorrow, I'm kind of in full on worry mode.  I am so, so hoping that I will be able to avoid putting my body through that. I hate to think of being so sick and exhausted all summer, and not being able to enjoy that time with my kids.  I'm nervous enough about the side effects from the other med I will have to take for 5-10 years. I'm so hoping I'm fortunate to avoid this chemo step.  Of course, if it's what has to happen, then it has to happen and I will battle through it, but man I hope we get good news tomorrow.  If we do get the news we're hoping for, I'm really hoping and planning to get back to work on Monday next week, if this week continues to go well. I felt significantly better last week, so I'm hoping things continue to move in that direction.

This weekend was amazing.  We walked in the Race for the Cure 5k Walk.  I was nervous if I'd be able to do it at this point, but it was great. I felt really good, and it was definitely more of a stroll, so we moved at nice and easy pace.  I had all of my family there, and I could so feel the love and support.  My brothers were both home.  My sister and Aaron were there.  My niece and nephew were home from school.  My cousin and her family came up, along with my aunt and uncle.  My parents were both there, and a dear friend from school with her husband and sweet little girl joined us as well.  The day was insanely beautiful.  Avery had designed a shirt for us all to wear for the walk, and my cousin had them made.  She was so proud, and they were adorable and so soft!  It was incredible to be part of such a supportive community.  You could just feel it.  I'm excited to make this a Mother's Day tradition with my family.  I know Cullen and I have plans to continue to do this with our kids, even long after I beat this nasty disease.  We already have big plans for next year, now that we know what to expect.  So if you'd like to join our team next year, keep Mother's Day morning open.  We were home by noon, so you still have lots of time for other Mother's Day plans as well!  You won't regret it.  It was amazing. I only wish I'd have done this sooner.

I'll share lots of photos of it here at the bottom. I did share a bunch on Facebook, so you might've already seen them, if we're friends there.

That's about it for now.  I'd so appreciate it if you could send some very specific prayers up for me tomorrow, that my test results come back low risk, and I won't have to have chemo.  I'm going to just leave it at that for now, and we will cross the other bridge later, if it comes to that.  Thank you all so much for the prayers, love and support.