Crying Under The Camo

Well if I’m being real, this is real today. It’s been a really tough, emotional -cry under my camo hat- (thanks to my super sweet friend Amy for this hat by the way) kind of day today. Coming off round two chemo and starting to feel a bit better again so that is good news, but the hair is shedding and falling out like crazy, I feel super gross, had an appointment with  a wig store today. The lady was super sweet and helpful, but holy wig sticker shock. I was so hopeful the scalp cooling thing would work, but it’s not looking like it, and accepting that is tough. Today I looked in the mirror sitting in that wig shop chair and saw myself as a cancer patient, and that was hard. I’d venture to say it’s been one of the toughest days on this adventure.

Just a tough day all around today. I am pretty strong 98% of the time, but I feel like it’s only fair to keep it real, so that if someone else reads this some day, it’s okay to know it’s okay to have these days. So I will get through it and tomorrow will be better I know ...but today I’m calling this one in. 😨😢